Here i am

Here I am

Not wondering how I got here
But knowing the steps I took
And why I took them
For the first time in my life
In real time

Here I am

Not wanting to wake them
The folks that said I could
No matter the situation
This situation is not it
But it might

Here I am

Seeing who I associate with
Is still propagating the myth
Just as my parents did
With no regrets
But learning

Here I am

Appreciating those who accept
Not just where I am
But who I am
Right here, right now
In real time

Here I am

Understanding how far I have
To go on learning, growing
Giving and sharing
Today
Some see it

Here I am

Feeling the non-judgmental ear
Hearing my too good to be true
Stories that are as real as sun
Lighting the way we should be
Are they real

Here I am

Really wanting to believe
Inside a mask we all wear
Trusting instincts
Everyone has shared
It is real

Here I am

Appreciating this space
This time on my hands
Trying to share it with them
Even if they are not ready
For me to be me

Here I am

Singing from the heart
Letting the diaphragm
Take all the credit, today
As it should

Here I am

Up at 2:39 writing as I do
Not as I say, ever
Cajoling myself
Relentlessly
With a smile

Here I am

Deal with it
Or refuse to give in
That's what they will say
Who is they, I can hear him